This is a post I wrote over a year ago. It’s one of my favorites. I thought it deserved a re-post!
Something happened to me today that I just had to share with you all. I got a “God wink”! (please refer to my blog dated 8/26/08 for further explanation of a God winks)
I was driving to work listening to my new favorite station KLOVE 101.9 (http://www.klove.com/). They were talking about the earthquake in Haiti and reading emails from some missionaries that had contacted them. I was saddened to hear more of the devastation and to hear a 1st hand experience. I wanted to cry.
Over the last couple of days my heart has felt heavy for several reasons: a friend going thru a difficult marriage, clients experiencing extreme amounts of grief and loss, and now the earthquake. They said on the radio, “If you don’t know what to do, pray!” So I started praying: for my friends, my clients, and the people of Haiti. My prayers quickly turned into a conversation with God that went something like the following:
“I don’t get it God. Are we here to suffer? There is SO much pain around me right now- everywhere- personally, at work, and in the world. I know it’s always here but today it feels so heavy. I know you are near but I feel so sad and I know people can’t feel you right now. We need to feel you!” As I pulled into our parking lot, “Healing Rain” by Michael W. Smith came on the radio. I sat in my car in the parking lot and listened to this song. As I reflected to the words of the song, I said to God out loud, “My HEART is heavy, God.”
I pulled myself together and walked into my office. I had 25 minutes before my first client. When I sat down to check my messages I started crying and could not stop. So I did what I coach my clients to do- stop, feel it, and work thru it. So I cried…and cried. Once I stopped crying, I picked up my phone and intended to begin working. I had a text from a friend. It read as follows:
“Hi Natalie. I just wanted you to know that you have really been on my heart this AM…In a big way. Praying for you especially that God tends to your HEART. ” Can you believe that???? I felt God telling me that he heard me and was tending to my heart. I went on to tell her that I couldn’t believe her text and the timing and how heavy my heart was. She said, “Natalie, I want you to know that the image I received when praying for you this AM was the Lord holding your heart in His hands and massaging it!” I was floored!!! I can’t tell you the feeling I had knowing God was taking care of little ole me in this big hurting world. He even heard my prayers and gave me something that gave me strength for my day. This was my God wink. God so lovingly massaged my heart today! Thank you, God, for the wink
Thank you for reading and we’ll chat soon.
*Natalie Chandler, MA, LMHC is a therapist at Imagine Hope Counseling Group. Natalie enjoys doing marriage counseling, individual counseling, and couples counseling. We also specialize in family counseling, child, and adolescent counseling. Imagine Hope serves the Indianapolis area including the surrounding areas of Carmel, Fishers, Noblesville, Westfield, and Zionsville.